Disposable photoset of the fall months
i’m actually falling in love more each day it feels like i mean you just make me really happy
I was in the winter of my life, and the men I met along the road were my only summer.
At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them.
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour, and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.
I was a singer - not a very popular one,
I once had a dreams of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events some of those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken.
But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I’d been living, they asked me why - but there’s no use in talking to people who have home.
They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people - for home to be wherever you lay your head.
I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean…
And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying…
Because I was born to be the other woman.
I belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone.
Who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.
-Lana Del Rey
Sooo one day this guy messaged me on facebook, wanted to smoke and chill, thought nothing of it. I usually ignore people on facebook but this one boy… I had to see who he was. I’m so glad I did. Ever since then my life has changed so much for so much better. I stopped being surrounded by negativity everywhere, in myself, in my friends, family and school. I always thought I was a depressed person. But you’ve brought out so much happiness in me I barely feel that anymore. I’ve grown out of a lot of things in these past six months. I feel so much better now than ever. I quit cigarettes and I rarely even drink. Since I’ve known you I’ve been to college, had two jobs(even though only one paid), and tried to improve my life in so many ways. I’m done with pettiness and inconsideration and selfishness. Happiness, love and motivation are what drives me now.
Thao with The Get Down Stay Down | When We Swam
oh bring your hips to me
Band Of Horses - The Funeral
I’m coming up only
To hold you under
I’m coming up only
To show you wrong
Your Hand In Mine || Explosions in the Sky
La Dispute | A Letter
I think the thing is that I shut off from everything.
From friends and family and my own ambitions.
From having fun.
I just shut off from everything.
Self-defeating? Yeah, probably.
But I don’t know that I had total control over it.
And I’m not sure it even matters why.
I Think It Is Beautiful That You Are 256 Colors Too by Black Moth Super Rainbow